December 2011
11 posts
I have so many thoughts racing through my mind tonight. Well to be honest, they are the same thoughts that have been running around since April. I’m trying so hard to push them aside. Easier said than done. But on a good note, I got my engagement ring back from the jewelers today. I feel much better with it back on my finger.
November 2011
27 posts
When I was younger I was one of “those” horse girls. Lessons, grooming, ground work, the works. I rode a beautiful 1/2 quarter 1/2 arabian named Sissy. Besides my German Shepard Ritz, she was the love of my life. It all stopped when I moved with my mom to Boise. And when we moved back I felt jaded towards farm life in general. Now it seems (being back in the country community)...
I am plagued with all the “what if’s” and “shoulda/coulda/woulda’s” that float through my mind on a constant and daily basis. They scare me. I scare me. I feel like I’m someone else trapped inside me sometimes. I’m happy, yet sad. I want to smile, then cry. To dance and be carefree, only to hide in the safety of my house for days.
“Penis, penis, penis, vagina, vagina, vagin.”
– Varsity Blues
“You’re only in trouble if you get caught.”
– Disney’s Alladin
Why are girls so stupid?! Brain. Explosion. Good grief.
I have been getting lost into pages and pages of different novels the last two days. I’ve needed this escape.
Numb. I guess that’s all I can say.
I have found SO many gorgeous wedding dresses that I can’t wait to try on. I can’t believe this is happening. I have truly the most amazing man in my life and he picked me, of all people, to want to be with.
So Peter, you’ve become a pirate.
October 2011
19 posts
